Five Hidden Patterns Trapping Single Mothers

Article by Lisa Loree - The Rebel Ballerina

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I was running around that Mother's Day morning, chasing my six-year-old and two-year-old, dealing with the chaos of autism, me yelling and pulling my hair out trying to get them ready for church so we could look good.

My then husband called from a luxurious golf course overseas to tell me what a wonderful time he was having. He finally got around to saying "Happy Mother's Day."

That was possibly the first time I said "Fuck you!" to him.

But here's the thing. After I corralled my kids and got them ready, we went to church. I put my happy face on like I always did. Everyone thought I had it all together.

I was definitely drowning, but everyone thought I was happy.

Years later, my now boyfriend reminded me that when we first started hanging out, I would say something to the effect of "Well, I probably won't be here tomorrow" or "I might not be here then" every single day. I wasn’t talking about being in town…I meant on the planet. Even during that time, I still had that happy face on.

That's the struggle with being a single mother who's also a fawn type. We're conditioned to believe we have no power, so we develop these survival strategies that look like strength to the outside world.

But they're actually keeping us trapped in cycles of suffering.

The Science Behind Our Suffering

Here's what nobody tells you about single motherhood: depression affects 33% of single mothers compared to just 8% of married mothers.

We're not just dealing with typical parenting stress. We're battling clinical depression at epidemic levels.

And the financial reality? About a third of single mothers couldn't handle a $400 emergency expense. That financial fragility creates the desperation that feeds into these destructive patterns.

But the patterns themselves? Those are invisible. They're the behavioral responses we develop during childhood to survive that end up destroying us from the inside out.

I didn't realize my "survival strategies" were actually keeping me trapped until I became so low in depression that I just didn't care anymore. My first real boundary was Marine crawling away from my marriage. But that “boundary” wasn’t derived from strength, it came from a level of depression that I just didn’t have it in me to give a shit.

When I heard someone say "You create your life," I had to stop and think: wait a minute, and, what the hell??? I did NOT create this big fat mess!!! Who on earth would want that?

That was my first spark of recognition.

Pattern #1: The False Strength Trap

For single mothers, powerlessness shows up looking like strength to the outside world. But it's false strength.

Really what it is, is isolation and people-pleasing.

I can't ask for help because I can't put myself out there like that. What if someone makes fun of me? What if they think I'm weak?

This constant caring about what other people think is the foundation underlying the people-pleasing problem. So instead of asking for help, we do everything ourselves. More than what's necessary for raising the kids, plus people-pleasing everybody else too.

The exhaustion is crushing. But it looks like we're being strong to the outside world.

When a fawn type tries to leave a situation, there's so much fear involved. Fear, guilt, dread. We're conditioned to believe we have no power, so surviving any kind of separation feels impossible.

Plus we're isolated. Typically we've been dealing with some kind of taker, manipulator, exploiter, or narcissist who perpetuates that isolation. So we're alone, feeling abandoned, full of fear and guilt.

We stay until we just can't anymore, or until our body finally gives out under the pressure.

Pattern #2: Living Moment to Moment

I wasn't making real plans for myself or thinking about claiming space in my own life. I was literally living moment by moment, deciding in each of those moments whether or not I was going to stay here or be gone.

The only thing I sought out was fun. How can I have bits of fun? What was fun?

I was desperate for something, really. Ballet had been taken from me fully, and my kids had their dad, so I wasn't concerned about them being orphans. The only thing keeping me here were those moments of fun.

This moment-to-moment survival mode prevents us from building anything sustainable. We can't create financial stability or support systems when we're not even sure we'll be here tomorrow.

It's a pattern that masquerades as "living in the present" but it's actually a trauma response that keeps us from creating the life we actually want.

Pattern #3: The Self-Sacrifice Spiral

The pattern that traps single mothers is trying so hard to please others that you give up everything. Even to the point of giving up your own soul.

It's shattering.

It's the worst thing in the world to abandon your own self and then have who you abandoned yourself for turn around and be a complete piece of shit. Then you realize you gave that up for nothing.

And it's shattering.

According to research on fawn response patterns, we act as if we unconsciously believe that the price of admission to any relationship is the forfeiture of all our needs, rights, preferences, and boundaries.

We don't just lose our identity. We actively sacrifice it, thinking it will buy us love, security, or acceptance.

But it never does.

Pattern #4: The Depletion Cycle

When single mothers realize they've given everything up for nothing, the fawn response can kick in even harder. We give it a deeper dive trying to do the thing we think we're supposed to do because we've been so conditioned to be this way. Give, give, and give some more.

I did that for years. Then I finally was just done and there was nothing left.

The difference between trying harder and becoming done is that trying harder continues to deplete and deplete and deplete. Then you're trying harder from a deficit and eventually there's nothing left.

At that moment it becomes: well then what difference does it make if I do whatever I want because I don't want to be here anyway. So, I may as well just do whatever the hell I want and who cares what happens.

You just don't know when that "doneness" is going to happen. But when it does, there's seemingly not much to live for.

That’s where I was and it's a very, very bad place to be. My advice is to recognize early on that these patterns in your life as destructive. Then, take action to change them now before you descend into darkness and lose everything, up to and including your life like I almost did.

Pattern #5: The Isolation Masquerade

The final pattern is the most insidious because it looks like independence and strength.

We isolate ourselves while telling everyone (and ourselves) that we're just being strong and self-reliant. We don't need anyone. We can handle everything on our own.

But isolation isn't strength. It's a trauma response that keeps us from building the support systems we desperately need.

When we can't ask for help, when we can't be vulnerable, when we can't admit we're struggling, we stay trapped in cycles that could be broken with the right support.

The happy face I put on at church that Mother's Day? That was isolation masquerading as strength. Everyone thought I was fine, so nobody offered help.

And I was too conditioned by fear and people-pleasing to ask for what I needed.

The Turning Point

I was definitely on a destructive path. It could have ended badly for sure.

But in that time searching for fun, just hanging out trying to find fun in life, it was almost like a prayer that I didn't even know was going out. Because of that, I got an answer.

People showed up in my life that would not have otherwise. Those people helped set me on this transformative path.

It's because of those people that I want to now help other people. That's the absolute basis for what we're doing with Rebel Fawn.

You just never know, even in your most desperate time, how that can actually end up being a blessing.

Breaking Free: The Rebel Fawn Path

Recognizing these patterns is the first step to breaking free from them.

The moment you see that your "strength" is actually isolation, that your people-pleasing is actually self-abandonment, that your survival strategies are actually keeping you trapped, you can start making different choices.

Being a rebel fawn means refusing to sacrifice yourself for other people's comfort.

It means asking for help even when you're terrified of being judged.

It means making plans for your future even when you're not sure you want one.

It means setting boundaries even when people call you selfish.

It means choosing your own voice over other people's approval.

The Ripple Effect

When you break these patterns, you're not just saving yourself. You're modeling something different for your children.

You're showing them what it looks like when someone claims their own life.

You're teaching them that their needs matter, that their voice matters, that they don't have to sacrifice themselves to earn love.

The patterns that trapped you don't have to trap them.

But it starts with you recognizing that what looks like strength might actually be the thing that's keeping you stuck.

And that recognition? That's where your real power begins.

Does that sound familiar?

If you're reading this and thinking "Holy shit, that's me," then you're already further along than you think. Recognition is the first step toward rebellion.

And rebellion? That's where your real life begins.

Your Rebellion Starts Now

Here's what I know for certain: You didn't find this article by accident.

You're here because something inside you is ready to stop living these patterns. You're tired of the false strength, the depletion cycle, the isolation masquerade. You're ready to break free.

But knowing these patterns exist isn't enough. You need a roadmap out.

That's exactly why I created the Fun Hot-Bitch Mom 90 Day Experience.

After I crawled out of my own darkness and learned to live as a rebel fawn, I realized other single mothers needed more than just awareness. They needed a proven system to break these patterns and build something beautiful in their place.

This isn't another program that tells you to "just think positive" or "practice self-care." This is a 90-day intensive designed specifically for single mothers who are ready to stop sacrificing themselves and start building a legacy their children will be proud of.

In 90 days, you'll learn to:

• Recognize your fawn triggers before they derail your life

• Set boundaries that stick (even when people call you selfish or self-absorbed)

• Ask for help without the crushing shame and fear of abandonment

• Build financial stability from a place of power, not desperation

• Create support systems that actually support and nourish your soul

• Make decisions from your authentic voice, not your trauma response

• Model healthy rebellion for your children by setting your boundaries and actually living in your freedom

Most importantly, you'll learn to have fun while you're doing it. Because if we're not having fun, we're just creating another prison.

The women who go through this experience don't just break free from these patterns. They become the mothers they always wanted to be. They build lives their children want to emulate instead of escape from.

They become the ripple effect of change their family line has been waiting for.

Your children are watching. They're learning from every choice you make, every boundary you set or don't set, every time you choose yourself or abandon yourself.

What legacy are you building for them?

If you're ready to stop living these patterns and start building something beautiful, the Fun Hot-Bitch Mom 90 Day Experience is waiting for you.

Because rebellion? That's not just where your real life begins.

It's where your children's real life begins too.

Ready to become the mother you were meant to be?

Your transformation starts now. To learn more download my ebook: From Almost Ending It All… To Fun Hot-Bitch Mom! here: https://www.rebelfawn.com/ebook01